Sometimes I get confused about the difference between “images with interpretation” and “images simply shows whoever did these can not draw”.
I clearly realize that sometimes I just refuse to take a good look at models standing in front of me. I think with my hands and let them control my brain. Maybe the image would come out great or expressive, but it makes me feel so empty.
I had a very long conversation with my teacher about how to move on with my career. I told her I felt my work is so boring and predictable. They don’t surprise me anymore. I’m stuck with the technique or skills that I have and can’t find a way to break through. “Maybe you didn’t try to see innocently what the object really is.” She said. Something got to me after the conversation. I started to observe myself when I draw. I have seen myself trying to brag, to hide, to look like a pro, to avoid mistakes, and to control, but not to really look at the model. What I have been doing is mostly putting up a good show. I’m not as true to my artwork as I thought.
Then let’s go back to the “interpretation” issue… Interpretation doesn’t mean I can just let go of what I can’t draw. I have to make logical choices instead.
I’ll keep learning and posting.